17-09-16

Yesterday I was at home after work with nothing to do and I decided to watch Page Turner, of course acted by my super favourite Kim So Hyun. Any show with her in it definitely attracts me to watch the show.

It was those kind of drama special which is only 3 episodes but to be honest I'm very impressed with it because it was a very meaningful drama and 3 episodes is nice as there wun be too much fillers of the story which makes everything short and sweet.

The shows revolves around 3 teenagers, Yoon YooSeol ( Kim SoHyun ) , Seo JinMok ( Shin JaeHa ) and Jung ChaSik ( Ji Soo ).

Yoon YooSeol is a talented panist who has won alot of competitions and is the top of the class. Seo JinMok is the classmate of Yoon YooSeol and is always the 2nd of the class. JinMok is slightly less talented but he puts in alot of hardwork to make up for the lack of talent.

YooSeol and JinMok knew each other since young and has been rivals because of YooSeol's mom as she was the piano teacher of JinMok and JinMok coming from a rich family despies her and because of this, he is so unhappy because he is constantly losing to YooSeol and one day he cannot take it anymore and he decided to make a wish as he thinks YooSeol and her mom is too cocky that he feels they need to get some punishment so that they wun be so cocky.

And his wish was granted.

YooSeol met with an accident and she lost her sight. And this made JinMok really regretted his decision for the wish.

And now we move on to Jung ChaSik's side of the story.

Jung ChaSik is an athlete who specialise in high jump. But one day due to a small injury he went to the doctor and found out that he does have a more serious injury which is on his spine which affects what he likes best, high jumping.

And suddenly fate lets the 3 of them meet each other at the hospital and fate lets them meet in school.

ChaSik volunteers to help YooSeol to and fro school as she has lost her sight.

I'll stop talking more about the story and talk about the individual things of them which made me have alot of thoughts in life.

When YooSeol lost her sight, her mom is so worried about how she is unable to play the piano anymore which really made her felt so sad. When she lost her sight, the first thing that the mom worried is how she is not able to play the piano and not about how she is gonna live on with her life.

She felt that everything she is doing in her life, including playing the piano is all for her mom as her mom puts all the drive on her to be the top pianist as this is something that her mom is unable to do when she is young so she hopes that YooSeol will be able to do it but in the expenses of YooSeol's happiness.

She said she was able to experience so many things when she went blind because she doesn't have to play the piano anymore which she is able to experience a new life.

After all these happens, Seo JinMok regretted what he wished for and he wants to do something for YooSeol by secretly helping her in anyway he can.

JinMok is someone that really enjoys playing the piano even though he knew that he is not as talented as YooSeol but his dad insisted on him taking the SAT test and giving up playing the piano as his dad feels playing the piano will not get him anywhere.

Jung Chasik felt so dejected after he had that injury which doesn't allow him to do high jump anymore that his mom decided to tell him a lie that his dad is a very famous pianist which makes him believes that he will have talent in playing the piano in which he ask YooSeol to teach him on how to play the piano.

After finishing the show, I felt so sad inside.

YooSeol, because of all the expectations given to her by her mom, she cannot enjoy what she likes because of all the pressure given to her which in turn gave her such an unhappy life since small.
JinMok is someone who really loves playing the piano but due to the pressure given by his dad, is not able to do something that he really likes, which is playing the piano.
ChaSik on the other hand feels that unable to do high jump anymore, he is useless in his life as he is unable to do any other things.

Sometimes in life, we shouldn't expect our kids to be able to do something that we are unable to achieve when we had the chance, we should be letting them do something that they really like or enjoy in life as something that we like doesn't mean that they will like. By giving them invisible pressure, we are directly affecting their life as they will feel that you being their parent they have to do what you tell them even if they dislike doing it.

And sometimes if you feel dejected that you are unable to do what you really wanted, you can instead have a change of view and have a change in decision.

Sometimes its not that we're not able to do something new which is a very unfamiliar thing to us. Sometimes we just need motivation and of course a push at the back so that we will have that drive to try to achieve what we're unfamiliar with.

Its the same thing as looking out of the box or leaving the comfort zone of your life. Sometimes you may find a greener pasture in your life or find something fresh which may interest you more den the previous thing you have done.

Page Turner, such a damm good drama.

12-09-16

Nowadays I keep finding myself staying at home during weekends and only going home after work.

Dunno why I feel so tired and very reluctant to go out nowadays.

Everyday after work, I just feel like going home to watch my tv dramas and play my games, I totally do not have the mood to wanna go out and have a walk, have a good meal outside or meet up with my friends.

Firstly I think because my body is like getting weaker and weaker, I'm always feeling very tired and lethargic and like I have lost interest in alot of things.

I'm like slowly slowly not really playing much games already, even my SRWOG progression is so slow. It's been more den a month and I'm just still at stage 30, if it's the me from last time I would have been playing it on the 2nd time round.

Watching drama is more like my preferred thing to do nowadays because I do not need to use too much of my brain power to think of what to do like when I'm playing games. I can just totally relax myself and just enjoy what is being shown on tv.

As for going out to have a good meal, I am quite on a tight budget actually as I do have quite an expensive medical bill I have to pay every 3 months so actually I try not to dine outside so frequently also as I dun really earn alot also to be able to dine out frequently.

Ahhhh, sian. Dun feel like writing liao. Time to rest.

31-08-16

31st August

Just a few more hours and I'm officially 33 years old.

Yes, I'm getting older and older, weaker and weaker day by day.

I suddenly feels that I'm experiencing mid-life crisis now.

I'm always thinking about life, thinking about stuffs, thinking about what will happen if this happens, what will happen if that happens.

I tend to prefer to be alone nowadays, preferring to do things solo and doesn't like to talk to people.

Thoughts always running through the mind.

Duno why there is like always so many things to think of.

They always say people who think alot are clever as they tend to plan things in advance to have a foolproof plan but my thinking of things is like thinking and thinking and thinking which I don't even know how to put them in words.

Sometimes I just don't feel I got the motivation to do anything, even things that I like and I dun even feel motivated to do it.

I feel I have just totally lost interest in everything.

I'm just feeling so bored of everything until that everyday when I reach home I just turn on the tv but I'm not even watching it.

Sometimes I dun turn on the TV, dun turn on the PC and only turn on the radio and lying on the bed doing nothing and starring at the ceiling.

Not motivated, no interest in anything.

17-08-16

It's already August 2016, nearly 3/4 of 2016 have passed.

That time I was worried about my health as one of my friend said that I have some symptoms of stomach cancer which got me worried for quite awhile. After much advise from friends, I've decided to go have a checkup. If I dun have cancer den of course its ok. If I really have cancer, at least I know I have it and I can plan for what to do in the future.

When I got my medical report, I was kind of relieved because I do not have any cancer. At least I do not have any more illness except for my diabetes and heart problem.

THAT IS A RELIEF.

Because during that period, I was constantly thinking of what to do if I do happen to have cancer which made me kinda down on my mood.

I am a person that always think of the worst case senario in case anything happens. I've been doing that for maybe the past 10 years.

I'm always thinking if I die, what will happen to my mom and my sis.

As for my sis, she's already married so at least anything happens she can still depend on her husband which is my brother in law.

As for my mom, I'm always having plans in my mind. I'm always constantly thinking of working more so that I can save more money for my mom so that if anything happens to me like if I need to stay in hospital or fallen so ill that I'm unable to work anymore, at least there will be some money kept so that she doesn't have to worry so much about it even if it's just a small amount.

I always feel that I need to work more, to earn more so that my mom can retire earlier and do not have to work so hard to still earn money.

But at least now its lesser of the worries because I DO NOT HAVE CANCER !

Yeah !

So now I shall go and enjoy myself by watch drama and playing games !

Logging out !

07-08-16

Nothing much to post, I shall post our selfies throughout the Japan trip !

01-08-16

Finally, August is here !

More den half of 2016 have passed, time does flies fast.

Yup, I'm gonna talk about the 2nd last day of my Japan trip in June.

The last day is considered our OTOT day as we extended an extra day so that we can walk around, buy some stuffs and have some good food together as the previous 2 days we need to follow the schedule which we do not really have much own time for ourselves also.

We decide to go Harajuku and Shibuya area to walk around and have our meals there.

We went to this ramen restaurant called Kyushu Jangara which is located at Harajuku. Its located on the 2nd floor of a building but we recognised it due to the queue spotted.

The black garlic ramen is actually quite good ! But its kinda oily though. But all ramens are supposed to be oily also because the layer of oil on top is to keep the ramen warm.

See they busy eating until ignore my selfie. Z z Z z Z

After that we decide to walk around Harajuku. Harajuku is my favourite place because there is damm alot of pretty girls walking around, but somehow they disappear on Sundays.

After that we saw this big LINE FRIENDS store and we went in to have a look but obviously guys doesn't have anything to see but its different for girls so we decided to stay outside and let the lady have some own shopping time in the store.

After that we went into some Adidas store which they have display for a new batch of shoes which look really quite nice.

After awhile we decided to go Akihabara because guys NEED to go Akihabara !

When we reached, we went to queue up and try the Pablo Cheesecake that everybody is talking about.

They were queueing for it but actually the queue is kinda short also. Not like SG always ppl queue for food until knn.

LOL ! Sophia was wearing this sunglasses that have such powerful reflective lenses that you can literally see Nicholas and me through the reflection.

After that we went to Yodobashi Camera wanting to have dinner at Sushizanmai, but when we reached there den we know that the branch at Yodobashi have closed already so we decided to have a walk inside. And YES ! YODOBASHI !

There's alot of Final Fantasy 15 and Persona 5 promotions going on as those are big titles in the country. You'll be amazed as there was a Live Streaming Event just to announce the release date for Persona 5. Japan is just an unbelivable country.

And of course the Audio section is always full of AKB48 and Nogizaka46 stuffs. They are like the only groups that's dominating the music charts in Japan. I feel no other groups come close to challenging them.

After that due to no more Sushizanmai, we decided to go for some BBQ Meat dinner just opposite Yodobashi.

I forget the name of the restaurant but the meat is really damm good ! But the price is kinda on the high side also. So at least its nice to justify the price.

After the dinner we were so tired that we decided to go back to the hotel liao.

Ok, thats all for today. Time to go back and grind my FFBE !

24-07-16

Do not really have any mood to say anything now, I'll just upload photos of the SRW 25th Anniversary Event.