08/09/2013

It has been a week and I've finally hit 30 !

Nothing to be happy about and nothing special to celebrate too, birthday is just like any other day. Just a day that you'll get alot of birthday wishes from friends which you only get them once a year.

As we celebrate our birthday everytime, we grow one year older which means another year with more responsibilities coz we grow older and of course one year nearer to step into the coffin. Hahahaha.

For the majority of my friends that is 30 or older, most of them would have their own family already or some of them would already have gotten married just that they have no kids yet, but there's still a minority group that's just attached and some still single just like me.

At 30, I'm currently leading just the life of the free and single. I do not have to report where I am and what I'm doing. I can do whatever I want now like going out till the wee hours, watching TV and drama serials till morning and of course sleep the whole day away during my offdays.

At 30 years old, I do not really have any big achievements in my life. Most probably my only achievement is getting my driving license thats all. Sucked at studies and not earning any big bucks. I'm not saying I'm earning peanuts, the salary I'm drawing now is actually quite not bad as I'm just an ITE grad. An ITE cert alone can't get us anywhere.

Most of my friends thinks I'm kinda happy go lucky person as I always show the "Ahhhh, dun care lah " attitude towards most of the things but most of the time I do think about alot of things. Most of my friends and the elderly always ask the questions like , " Old liao leh, when wanna find a girlfriend ? " or " So what you gonna do for the remaining of your life ? "

All these are the common questions your friends and family will ask when you hit a certain age and now I am at that age, but I always try to avoid answering all these questions.

Why ?

Like I've always answered to my friends, having an ill body with poor health is a burden to everybody. It's a financial burden as we are dependant to medication and medical appts which cost a bomb in this country in this world. It's a physical burden when we are unable to do what we want and becomes dependant to the people around us who have to constantly take care of us whenever we needed help. We are also mental burden as we do not know when we will just go off anyday which will affect the lives of our loved ones.

With all these thoughts going on and on in my mind, might as well I do nothing and just lead on my life. The life of freedom and minimise the burdens I will give to the people around me. We may bring sadness to the people around us when we're gone but life still have to go on for the rest of them. We only play a part in their lives for a short period, in the end it's their lives that is the most important thing.

Why make people suffer when we already is suffering. I always believe that if I just take the blame if anything happens and it settles the problem, I'll just do it. I'm not saying I'm a very noble person but I'm the kind of person that just doesn't want any troublesome stuffs which keeps going on and on. If I alone taking the blame which can solve everything, I dun see why I shouldn't do it.

Haiz . . . . . . . . . . . . .  Life, so complicated and troublesome.

Enough ranting for now, shall continue again soon