30-05-2014

Another week have gone and its already end of May.

So fast and we're already half way of the year 2014.

During the Chinese New Year period, they said the year 2014 is a fabulous year for the Pigs. Everything is like graded AAA in terms of health, luck, work, everything. But all these doesn't seem to land on me.

Ever since the year 2014 started, health has been getting from bad to worse on my side.

Diabetic condition have no improvement. I'm already eatimg alot lesser and cutting dowm on sugar intake which is practically none liao except for sometimes they happen to be in the food that I've ordered den I'll try to avoid as much as possible.

The previous medical appointment and my doctor told me something is wrong with my eye scan which may affect my vision in the future, be it near future or far future.

My heart problem is like gonna fail me anytime. The chestpains are coming alot more randomly compared to last year and sometimes the pains are really quite painful that I have to take the painkillers given to me by the doctor.

Few days ago and the big boss of my workplace came and he wanted to close the office aa he said our department is a bleeding department and we're not earning enough to cover the expenses.

Seriously from the first day of 2014, nothing have beem going well for me. Its depressing. Sick and tires of everything.

22-05-2014

Decision making, how important can making a decision be ? 

Its very important to make a correc decision in everything as everything we do, every decision we make will affect everything that will happen in the future, be it good or bad.

All these decisions will be irreversible so everything must be made with a sound mind as every decision must be a sound decision in your life.

I was chatting with my frenz that day about making decisions in life and my fren was saying that he doesn't know whether his changing of the job is a correct decision or not.

Previously he was working as a retail staff and as we all know, retail line doesn't really earn you tons of money and so he decided to change his job and went for the insurance agent aka financial planner.

After he changed his job, he did earn alot more but when this happens, more things lie on him.

As his grandma is hospitalised for quite a period, the relatives all pushed the medical bills over to him as they all know he is doing quite well at the moment and he is able to afford the medical bills.

When he is working as a retail staff and his salary is not that much compared to now, the relatives said that all should share the medical bills. Now when my fren earns more, they ask him to pay more of the medical bills.

What bullshit is this !

The medical bill is the same everytime, so if my fren is asked to pay more means the other relatives will be paying lesser. 

What kinda stupid nonsense is this !

I mean its his grandma of course he doesn't mind to pay the bills but be fair also lah, she is also YOUR grandma, YOU also have to play the part is paying the medical bills.

There's no such logic as I earn more and I have to pay more. Money dun drop from the sky, it requires hardwork to be able to earn more money.

Thats why my fren thinks now he doesn't know whether him changing to this higher earning job is a better choice or not due to all these things.

Problems problems, everybody have them.

14-05-2014

Friendship doesn't get better den this !

09-05-2014

Boring as usual

The weather in singapre is what the fuck man, its so damm hot nowadays that just after bathing and going back to my room, I dun even know whether that my hair is not dry yet or I'm constantly sweating.

Yoogane has officially opened a branch in Singapre and its located on the 2nd floor of Bugis Junction. My friends and we went to try it out on Monday. 

As usual there is a long queue for it as Singaporeans just love to queue. The service is not bad and the food taste near exactly the same as the one I've tried in Seoul. But the price is kinda steep though as its cost like $93 for the 3 of us which in Seoul it only cost $30+ for the 3 of us.

But still we had quite a fun and chattering dinner 

Will try it again with another groip of frenz if I have more budget for the month, kinda budget nowadays.

Been hoping that the Singapore arcades will be able to get Ultra Street Fighter 4 soon as I'm itching to try out the game !

My friends and me have decided to join SEAM2014 for this year. Even though I know that I'm just a scrubby player that is only there to contribute to the Pot money but since I have the chance now as I dun work on weekends I hope to gonand experience this kinda events.

Nothing happening has happened this week and I have nothing much to say already and I shall end this post with a photo of Apink !

01-05-2014

A PUBLIC HOLIDAY FINALLY !

Today I basically slept the whole day as yesterday I went to attend a wedding dinner and a funeral. Such a strange thing huh, but we all know funerals always comes suddenly and not expected as we never know when a close one, relative or friend will leave us.

Attended Heng's wedding yesterday at Changi Village Hotel. Feeling so happy for him as we're friends since secondary school days even though he's like 2 years younger den me but hey the difference in age doesn't matter as long as we keep our friendship close.

Speaking about friendship, I'm someone who on the outside doesn't seem to treasure friendship alot as I always say having one less friend actually doesn't matter to me but inside I do treasure friendship alot.

My friends always say that I'm quite anti-social as I always turn down requests for meetups but I don't really blame them as not everybody knows what I'm experiencing.

Being having Diabetes since young means I'm already restricted to alot of things that I can do in my daily life like able to eat sweet stuffs. Diabetics usually have to visit the toilet very frequently due to our body unable to break down the blood sugar in our body which will lead to alot of waste in our body thats why I have to visit the toilet alot daily and it happens alot more frequently when my blood sugar is high.

I have to take daily jabs at like a 12hr interval which means during every specific timing of the day I'll have to take my insulin jabs if not I'll feel very uncomfortable for the remaining period until I take my jab which is a very big burden for me.

Alot of my friends have asked me to travel to countries like USA or Europe but I've always rejected them because my body is not able to take long hour flights and I'll not be able to take my insulin jab during the flight which makes it even worse. But sometimes they do not understand the situation thats why I do not blame them.

And lately I'm diagnosed with heart problems with even add up to even more problems with my body. Having frequent chestpains does not really help in anything as the chestpains comes very randomly which sometimes will make me having breathing difficulties and sometimes giddy spells.

Having more illness means having more medical appointments which leads to more medical bills. And as all of us knows, medical bills in Singapore is definitely a killer. You may not die from the illness but you'll die from paying all that mother fucking bills.

And here comes a good bunch of friends which I really like alot and treasure their friendship since 10 years ago. I feel comfortable with them when we meetup even though it's not a very frequent thing due to all our busy schedules.

But lately I'm very upset with them. As I know everybody have their own difficulties in life and friends should help one another, and I'm someone that doesn't really reject people when they need help. As I believe if I can help I will help, if I'm unable to help you I will only pray that you'll solve your problem.

So for the past few years I've lend money to all of them in the group. And yes, money always lead to misunderstanding and quarrels.

During the time when I'm financially quite ok, they needed help and I lend them the helping hand by lending them money. It may not be a big amount but of course it's not a small amount also.

And it's been a few years and none of them have returned any money to me.

I'm not the type to chase you for money as I believe when you have the money you'll return me, if you do not have the money no matter how I chase you, you also won't be able to return me.

But nowadays I find this group of friends are actually quite enjoying their life, going overseas for holidays, buying a car and having good meals with their friends and family. This of course I'm quite happy for them as they are enjoying.

But on the other hand, the one that have helped them the past few times is having trouble in life, Physically, Mentally and Financially.

All of them knows about my problem as they are my good friends and so I always tell them what are the problems I'm having and facing, but none of them seems to take the initiative to return me the money as from what I see they are all definitely able to return me my money if they choose not to enjoy so much of their life.

This things upsets me as when they needed help, I help them whenever I can but now when I need help, none of them offer help to me, and not even trying to make an effort in returning me the money.

Even if you owe me 1k, you can return me $100 per month and less den a year you'll be able to clear the debt.

Sometimes I just feel that I help them but they may not help me. But I understand as humans always will think for themselves first, including me. So I do not really blame them, maybe they'll not even think of me when I'm gone.